Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Why can she eat that and I cant ?grrrr

I get bitter when I see a woman in her early 30s with a perfect body, eating a white cream filled donut and a milkshake at 730am. I stopped to get gas at wawa and with my wide variety of music taste, Barry White was playing. This woman and her magic Mike boyfriend were talking to me about how they loved Barry White too. They were perfect, not a love handle to pinch on either of them. This woman was very nice but I was mad at her because she had this fit body and she was eating this amazing food, and I cant :-( . If I ate like that I wouldnt be able to zipper my pants, and Id feel sick all day. I have a really good life but yet im still envious of this woman, and others like her because she gets to eat a donut. This does not seem logical. She could be unhappy for all I know but I want to steal her genetics and her Milkshake! Im not hungry eating six times a day, but I feel like Im missing out on this junk food, problem is I wont eat just that donut. If I ate that donut I would rationalize that I messed up the day and now it was free range to eat whatever junk I wanted. Id eat "bad" for the entire day because I had to make it worth it right?Then downward spiral I would go. Then I would feel sick and guilty, and for what , nothing but weight gain! Luckily I didnt  assualt this poor unsuspecting girl and take her donut! I got in my car and went to work.

Work is always a great support because when I get in my nutrition / weight lose mode my coworkers always test the waters with me. We all logged onto and counted our calories. Its an awesome site as well as Lose it, thanks to all my friends advice guiding me to these sites. These sites are keeping me aware of what I am eating.

The day is busy once again. I left the house at 7:15am and went to work then picked up the kids at 5:30pm and came home to eat dinner,  did laundry and prepared them all for day camp for tomorrow. Now Im leaving soon to go to a boys club meeting, which means no exercise for me again. My coworker/ friend is working on some exercise activities for us to do after work, and I am looking forward to that. Im hoping to atleast go for a walk tomorrow night.

Heres what I ate today:
Breakfast: 2 egg whites and 1/2 balckberries
Snack: 1/2 cherries and 2oz of Chicken
Lunch: 2oz of Chicken , 1/2 cup rice , 2 cups of salad
Snack: 2oz Chicken and 1 baked poatoes
Dinner: 2oz Chicken, 1/2 rice, and 2 cups of salad
Snack: 1 peach~ I will eat this when I come back

64oz of water and 1 cup of green tea

The battle continues,but with all of you watching, Im hoping I wont give in. Im fearful of the weekend approaching. Wish me luck :-)


  1. I admire your determination and willingness to be held accountable. That's half the battle!