Its been a fun but "Cruel Summer"

I have not had one weekend free of parties, concerts, activities vacations, day trips etc... with so many different friends and family. I am extremely grateful for all of the great times. Great times always equals great food and overindulging for me.  I never know when to stop. All summer I have had food readily available to me and plenty of drinks too. I'm an all or nothing kind of girl so I didn't pick and choose what I should have, I just had it all. Thankfully I kept walking for the most part and posting on facebook because that keeps me honest. Even all my exercise didn't prevent the inevitable, I gained 5 pounds . I thought "normal" people lose weight during the summer, not gain it! I'm not normal I know :-P

Last week I was traumatized when I volunteered to be a part of a weight lose challenge amongst friends and family. I was all for it until they asked me to get on that god awful scale. I couldn't do it. I did get on the scale but was traumatized by the numbers. It was after a full day of eating and drinking and if it was my scale I would have broken it!  Announcing my weight is just as bad a me not having coffee in the morning. So needless to say I cannot be part of that challenge ,so now I have to challenge myself again .

Bye bye Sam's Pizza, Curly fries, Kohr Bros vanilla ice cream, with rainbow jimmies and  hello to planning my food and eating 6 times a day! Back to my busy Fall/Winter routine of school/homework, kids sports (Hockey , Soccer Baseball), guitar lessons and work. That should keep me perfectly scheduled and I will be able to plan everything just the way I like it :-) Wish me luck in losing 20 pounds by this time next year!.

“It's hard to beat a person who never gives up.”
― Babe Ruth

I Hate My Scale Taylor!!!!

I hate my scale Taylor!! I love honesty this B.... is to much. Last week I lost 5 pounds, and this week I gained 5 pounds. I cannot win!!! but I will never give up!!! I just cant seem to get past this 20 pound lose. I switch food up , I have even over indulged to try and reset, and nothing! I’m at the point were I just want to eat whatever I want because it isn’t making any impact. The only reason I wont give up is because honestly my old lady acid reflux has disappeared because of my good eating habits. Also, I have not gained weight, and I know if I let go, I will be in real trouble. If I look at junk food the wrong way on a daily basis I will gain 10 pounds without blinking.

Yesterday at the pool I got shoe string fries, and acted like I made a healthy choice by not getting cheese on my fries. All the ketchup that I put on surely made up for that. Not to mention Christian's left over chicken finger that I enjoyed. It was a downward spiral after that because last night I was going to make brownies for the boys and I planned on eating like 4 of them. Luckily for me there were no eggs to make the brownies and I was to tired to go to the store. Laziness finally paid off for me once!

One thing that did motivate me was seeing my license picture from 4 yrs ago and comparing it to the new one. Although the stupid scale wont cooperate with me , I can visually see a difference. I will hold onto that for now and keep moving forward <3

Its my Summer and I can eat and drink if I want to~No, no I cant!!!

All this fun with friends and family this summer has really been great but I was eating and drinking whatever I wanted to, just like those skinny girls that I used to be, and I am surely not anymore. My metabolism is shot now! Although still walking , it just wasn't enough. The stupid scale did not move one ounce and I was getting frustrated. So I did something extreme and tried the sacred heart diet last week. I ate fruit all day one day, veggies all day the next, then steak another day.It went on for 7 days. It is not something you can do everyday of life but it helped me drop 5 pounds. Now Im hoping to keep it going with eating 6 small meals again at least on weekdays. For today Im having a corona light and a brownie sundae for desert tonight, tomorrow back in action! Hey Im not perfect ;-)

As I was walking the dogs this morning, I saw a woman with a cane. She was very overweight and walking very slowly in front of me. I did not want Kernel to jump on her so I came up quickly by her side and passed her. She looked over at me and said thank you! Her face wa young, this was not an older person at all. I usally only learn these lessons at wawa ( if you know me you undertand) I do not want to be that woman so I will keep on moving forward. Wish me luck, I will need it :-)

Im back!!!!

Its been a long time since I have written about this on going battle! I am at an even 20 pound weight loss and have kept it off for almost a year . It was an extremely rough winter and I put on 5 pounds during that time because of snow. What you cant blame snow for making you fat? You cant go out, you have to eat a lot of junk right???and no exercise because no one walks in the snow! Don't join a gym or buy a treadmill !?!? It took me a few months but I finally lost those extra 5 pound. Again if you know me, you know that still is not good enough. I need to lose more to be at my ideal weight. I am a hater to those people that can eat whatever they want and not gain a single ounce, that's no secret. I feel like if I even have one night of fun, that fun stays with me (on my stomach, hips, thighs)for a week. In the long run that fun is not worth that feeling. With my old age of 40 lol and the insanity of my daily schedule with my 3 boys, 2 dogs, and a full time job there's not a whole lot of time to plan my food, and make time for exercise. I always try my best but sometimes planning is just in the cards. Although delicious, fine dining at the snack bar every night having cheese fries was not my best option. I figured the walking would balance that out. It has to be good food and exercise t make it work. As the baseball season comes to a close, and roller hockey and swim team approach, packing my food Is the best way to go. Planning ahead  always is the key for me.

I think this time what really got me was I was talking to someone the other night and she said to me , oh no the hot weather is coming, I guess WE cant cover up with our jackets anymore. I'm not sure I want to be in that category! No I know I don't want to be in that category! So I'm going to keep moving forward and I'm back!!!!!

 "Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that"~Rocky Balboa