The Holiday Season {food, food, and more food}

I am at a weight lose of 17.6 pounds . I have basically stayed the same this month. This holiday season is very nerve racking. The week before thanksgiving I attended not one, but two feasts. I maintained control, and stuck with my basics, protein, veggies, and rice or potatoes. I did not have any desserts at those parties. That has taken me alot of self restraint, if you know me well, you know I look forward to dessert time.  Thanksgiving at my house was a "cheat day" . I went for a long walk before dinner and felt okay to eat whatever I wanted. I ate until I felt sick and then got right back into things the next day. That was hard for me because I always eat a turkey sandwich with everything the day after. I decided that one day was enough. I'm not sure how I'm going to face Christmas month. Its filled with baking cookies, many parties, and visiting people who cook all to well.  I think that will be much more challenging, hope I make it!

Last night I was really hungry and I made the kids mac and cheese bites. They smelled so good I wanted to put all of them in my mouth, so I did. Well not all, I put two in my mouth chewed them, and spit them out. It wasn't the same as swallowing them but at least I got the taste, and I really have gained willpower during these last few months, and didn't attempt to actually eat them. In place of my carb craving, I sliced up potatoes into chips and baked them in the oven. All was good in my world in that moment. Everyday is a challenge, so wish me luck going into the food zone this month.

Major Set Back!

It was a bad week. I didnt have my cheat day on Saturday because my husband said that he was making me a surprise halloween dinner. That through me off because Saturday food is all the leftovers from the week, and that is just boring. I started to think about straying then I decided that only one day to cheat was allowed, and it had to be Wednesday. Especially because I haven't been walking much, and not much other exercise either. Then Monday night the hurricane hits, and its a food party at my house. I tried my best not to eat the chicken cutlet and mashed potatoes, but I couldn't resist. I had my husband bake the chicken instead of frying it, but there was still breadcrumbs. so I ate way more than my portion size. I didn't stop there because you know a bad meal isn't complete without dessert. I had chocolate covered Carmel popcorn .I ate more than half the bag, and then decided I was feeling sick. I didn't stop there, later on in the night I ate the rest of the bag. Tuesday I get back on track, and didn't touch any of the brownies that I made for the kids and their friends. Good thing those kids eat fast, and they didn't leave a drop. At that point I was really hungry. I overdosed on bad food and was craving more. I felt so hungry, and nothing was helping. I made it through the night without totally loosing it. Wednesday was Halloween. Of course we had many goodies at work but I just ate my healthy food and was feeling pretty good until I got home. There was homemade mac and cheese, really crispy, and spider bread. The rat meatloaf was cheese stuffed and tasted awesome , yes I ate it, and plenty of it. Then for dessert pumpkins with butter, sugar and Cinnamon. It was beyond delicious. I didn't stop there because it was Halloween I had to have some candy too.  The next day I felt awful, and new that my Friday weigh in wouldn't be good news. At that point I started thinking well you were close to a 20 pound lose, 2 pounds isn't bad, but then I thought yes it is. That is the same rationalization that always gets me into trouble. I ate bad for 2 days and haven't steadily exercised, and that's why I gained two pounds. Normally I would be angry and say I only ate bad for two days, why me, but honestly I know the answer.

I go into wawa this morning , yes because I live there, and this friendly woman was offering me a free sample. She sang a very nice song about me drinking the carmel salted latte. It was really strange, and I refused. She said but you will really like It. I said yes lady I know I will like it, I will probably LOVE it, so stop taunting me! She smiled at me like, whatever crazy lady, and I happily walked out with my black pumpkin spice coffee.Now to get back on track! Please no one offer me free unhealthy drinks or food, and I should be okay, I think?