tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60763796359912664412024-03-12T21:49:41.837-07:00Im FatAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.comBlogger53125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-23917520327415474832014-08-29T06:09:00.000-07:002014-08-29T06:09:12.248-07:00Its been a fun but "Cruel Summer"I have not had one weekend free of parties, concerts, activities vacations, day trips etc... with so many different friends and family. I am extremely grateful for all of the great times. Great times always equals great food and overindulging for me. I never know when to stop. All summer I have had food readily available to me and plenty of drinks too. I'm an all or nothing kind of girl so I didn't pick and choose what I should have, I just had it all. Thankfully I kept walking for the most part and posting on facebook because that keeps me honest. Even all my exercise didn't prevent the inevitable, I gained 5 pounds . I thought "normal" people lose weight during the summer, not gain it! I'm not normal I know :-P<br />
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Last week I was traumatized when I volunteered to be a part of a weight lose challenge amongst friends and family. I was all for it until they asked me to get on that god awful scale. I couldn't do it. I did get on the scale but was traumatized by the numbers. It was after a full day of eating and drinking and if it was my scale I would have broken it! Announcing my weight is just as bad a me not having coffee in the morning. So needless to say I cannot be part of that challenge ,so now I have to challenge myself again .<br />
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Bye bye Sam's Pizza, Curly fries, Kohr Bros vanilla ice cream, with rainbow jimmies and hello to planning my food and eating 6 times a day! Back to my busy Fall/Winter routine of school/homework, kids sports (Hockey , Soccer Baseball), guitar lessons and work. That should keep me perfectly scheduled and I will be able to plan everything just the way I like it :-) Wish me luck in losing 20 pounds by this time next year!.<br />
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“It's hard to beat a person who never gives up.” <br />
― <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/3916262.Babe_Ruth">Babe Ruth</a>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-8686257087440660912014-07-26T07:39:00.002-07:002014-07-26T07:39:59.745-07:00I Hate My Scale Taylor!!!!<br />
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I hate my scale Taylor!! I love honesty
this B.... is to much. Last week I lost 5 pounds, and this week I
gained 5 pounds. I cannot win!!! but I will never give up!!! I just
cant seem to get past this 20 pound lose. I switch food up , I have
even over indulged to try and reset, and nothing! I’m at the point
were I just want to eat whatever I want because it isn’t making any
impact. The only reason I wont give up is because honestly my old
lady acid reflux has disappeared because of my good eating habits.
Also, I have not gained weight, and I know if I let go, I will be in
real trouble. If I look at junk food the wrong way on a daily basis I
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Yesterday at the pool I got shoe string
fries, and acted like I made a healthy choice by not getting cheese
on my fries. All the ketchup that I put on surely made up for that.
Not to mention Christian's left over chicken finger that I enjoyed.
It was a downward spiral after that because last night I was going to
make brownies for the boys and I planned on eating like 4 of them.
Luckily for me there were no eggs to make the brownies and I was to
tired to go to the store. Laziness finally paid off for me once!</div>
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One thing that did motivate me was
seeing my license picture from 4 yrs ago and comparing it to the new
one. Although the stupid scale wont cooperate with me , I can
visually see a difference. I will hold onto that for now and keep
moving forward <3<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-82523059165131991732014-07-20T16:22:00.000-07:002014-07-20T16:24:20.751-07:00Its my Summer and I can eat and drink if I want to~No, no I cant!!!All this fun with friends and family this summer has really been great but I was eating and drinking whatever I wanted to, just like those skinny girls that I used to be, and I am surely not anymore. My metabolism is shot now! Although still walking , it just wasn't enough. The stupid scale did not move one ounce and I was getting frustrated. So I did something extreme and tried the sacred heart diet last week. I ate fruit all day one day, veggies all day the next, then steak another day.It went on for 7 days. It is not something you can do everyday of life but it helped me drop 5 pounds. Now Im hoping to keep it going with eating 6 small meals again at least on weekdays. For today Im having a corona light and a brownie sundae for desert tonight, tomorrow back in action! Hey Im not perfect ;-)<br />
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As I was walking the dogs this morning, I saw a woman with a cane. She was very overweight and walking very slowly in front of me. I did not want Kernel to jump on her so I came up quickly by her side and passed her. She looked over at me and said thank you! Her face wa young, this was not an older person at all. I usally only learn these lessons at wawa ( if you know me you undertand) I do not want to be that woman so I will keep on moving forward. Wish me luck, I will need it :-)Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-43498581013715710122014-06-22T07:12:00.001-07:002014-06-22T07:12:45.879-07:00Im back!!!! Its been a long time since I have written about this on going battle! I am at an even 20 pound weight loss and have kept it off for almost a year . It was an extremely rough winter and I put on 5 pounds during that time because of snow. What you cant blame snow for making you fat? You cant go out, you have to eat a lot of junk right???and no exercise because no one walks in the snow! Don't join a gym or buy a treadmill !?!? It took me a few months but I finally lost those extra 5 pound. Again if you know me, you know that still is not good enough. I need to lose more to be at my ideal weight. I am a hater to those people that can eat whatever they want and not gain a single ounce, that's no secret. I feel like if I even have one night of fun, that fun stays with me (on my stomach, hips, thighs)for a week. In the long run that fun is not worth that feeling. With my old age of 40 lol and the insanity of my daily schedule with my 3 boys, 2 dogs, and a full time job there's not a whole lot of time to plan my food, and make time for exercise. I always try my best but sometimes planning is just in the cards. Although delicious, fine dining at the snack bar every night having cheese fries was not my best option. I figured the walking would balance that out. It has to be good food and exercise t make it work. As the baseball season comes to a close, and roller hockey and swim team approach, packing my food Is the best way to go. Planning ahead always is the key for me. <br />
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I think this time what really got me was I was talking to someone the other night and she said to me , oh no the hot weather is coming, I guess WE cant cover up with our jackets anymore. I'm not sure I want to be in that category! No I know I don't want to be in that category! So I'm going to keep moving forward and I'm back!!!!!<br />
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<span class="bold quote_actor"> "</span><span class="line">Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that"~<span class="bold quote_actor">Rocky Balboa</span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-19334061430855669632013-08-10T05:36:00.002-07:002013-08-10T05:36:19.193-07:00I added another 1 pound gain to the other 2 pounds I gained from the week before. I am now back to a 17 pound loss instead of a 20 pound loss. Let the roller coaster ride begin again, I hate rides!! I guess that's not to bad considering I have been with the family for the last few weeks. However, I am really disappointed in myself and angry that my body just cannot accept sugar or flour in it. It always seems so unfair. With my Aunt Marion's passing the best way me and my family know how to deal with grief is to eat. "Mangia" and that's what we did. Stuffed shells, pizza, hoagies, cannoli, pine nut cookies, pineapple stuffing, donuts, and so much more that I wouldn't even have room to write all of the food that was in front of my face. I controlled myself for the most part, but ate foods that I wouldn't normally eat anymore. Not to mention my alcohol consumption, which is very rare anymore too. I walked every single day on an average of 4 miles, and that still didn't stop the weight from creeping on. It took me months to loose that 3 pounds and within a few short weeks it was back. I have been very busy and had no time to prepare my food, which is always a disaster for me. <br />
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Last Sunday I decided that enough was enough and I was getting back on track on Monday. I ate a very large piece of my sons birthday cake and a humongous serving of cheese fries with lots of ketchup. Yes I felt sick but that did not stop me from eating ice cream too. Again this week has been busy and no time for planning.I have lost some of my motivation to continue on with this "battle" as I always call it, but tried. I stayed away from the most bad carbs, but did have a black cherry gelati from POP's water ice that was amazing! It all tasted good but was not worth it. Why do I do this to myself???? <br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-60765700138252182572013-07-26T05:57:00.002-07:002013-07-26T05:57:18.527-07:00I gained 2 pounds GRRRRSo the last week I have not been able to plan my food as I normally do, and I gained 2 pounds. It doesn't seem fair that one week of still eating healthy but not measuring food can cause this ughhh. My usual Friday weigh in today, and the first time in months that I have gained weight . It makes me angryyyyyy!<br />
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Yesterday was the day that I ate the most. I had 2 egg whites and kale for breakfast, then for 10am snack , had an apple and (2) string cheeses). For lunch I had collard greens , ground turkey and rice. Then for my afternoon snack I had the meat from the cheese steak ( no bread) salad , a small sugar free water ice, and one delicious chocolate chip cookie. for dinner I had a few pieces of American cheese with salami because I was in a rush. Then I went for a 2.22 mile walk and came back really hungry. I had an apple with 2 tablespoons of chunky peanut butter. <br />
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I must say the cookie made me a little crazy ! I couldn't help but eat one because I smelled them all the way from my office. I really wanted to eat the entire box. When everyone left the office to see all the candy in another department, I almost grabbed a couple cookies to eat in the corner of my office. My stubbornness won over. I decided that I LOVE fitting into my clothes comfortably, and one cookie was enough. I popped a piece of vanilla raspberry dessert gum in my mouth and went on with my business.<br />
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<span style="color: #00ccff; font-size: medium;">A few weeks ago I did not bring my food with me to a very long meeting in another county. That is not good for a " Hangry" ( hungry & angry) person. So I arrive at 8am with only 2 egg whites and a 1/2 cup of strawberries in my system. Around 1pm my boss went to the store and got me peanuts because that was the only good choice that was available . We were all hungry but were not able to go to lunch. So the meeting ended at 3pm which is never good on a Friday because that means TRAFFIC! After I was stuck in the car for the first hour ( and it was raining) I started to look for food in the car. The kids always leave snack bags in the car. I found old French fries, a bag of half eaten chips, and a few teddy grahams on the floor. These were not good choices to pick from but if this was a year ago, it would have been a buffet :-). So I decide that I don't know what my lil men have done to this food, and I should not eat it. Another hour goes by and I contemplate eating the one lonely skittle that was on the floor, it was red , my favorite, and I though oh maybe I can wipe it off. It was not a good situation. I passed on the skittle too but was about to break down, then the traffic started moving. 2 &1/2 hours in total and I was finally home. I had a cheesesteak waiting for me. I usually only eat the meat but not on that day. I ate the entire sandwich . I was so happy eating it, but when I was done I was so sick. I had heart burn and couldn't sleep that night. That is why I always have to be prepared, or I completely lose my mind. Food is like a drug to me as I had said many times. So always be prepared and remember no one is perfect. we all mess up , but the great thing is that every day is a new day to start right back over again. I never said it was , or is easy to do, but it sure is worth it! You will see results if you just try. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #00ccff; font-size: medium;">Success is not a race, be patient.<br />Success leads to success.<br />Success is always a work in progress.<br />Success doesn't come to you--you go to it</span><span style="color: #66ccff; font-size: medium;">.</span><span style="color: #00ccff; font-size: medium;">Success is a journey, not a destination. Focus on the process.<br />Some people dream about success... while others wake up and work hard at it.<br />Success is achieved and maintained by those who try-and keep trying.<br />Everyday is a good day to SUCCEED!<br />If at first you don't succeed-try, try again</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-81544588977444669812013-06-29T04:51:00.003-07:002013-06-29T04:55:33.386-07:00 20.6 pounds ago!So I haven't made it to July 16th yet but I have reached my 20 pound loss that I set for that date! 20.6 pounds to be exact . Last summer sitting by the pool with one of my best friends Susan, talking about how impossible it was to lose weight. Now not even a year later we have both met goals that we thought were never imaginable. <br />
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Exercising has changed my life in so many ways. I always thought that you had to go to a gym to be fit, but that's not true. Its really whatever works for you. Walking has been my greatest fear (because I broke my foot 3 times over the last 30 years) but it has become the best weight loss exercise for me . Most importantly it produces endorphins ( happy thoughts) and it keeps everyone safe from my "hulk like" anger :-) as well as hazelnut coffee too. <br />
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The key to it all is mindset( You have to really want it), and prepare your food in advance! Being prepared is not always easy as I know all to well. With having 3 boys actively involved in everything, 2 dogs , and a full time job, preparation is the only way it works. I am happy and healthier for my boys and I will not stop here. My goal for next year is to lose another 20 pounds. I cannot say it is easy, but it is sure worth it. Now when I look in the mirror I recognize who's looking back at me. Last year that was not the case. So once again without all of our texts, emails, tweets, messages etc... I would be closet eating again , so thank you , thank you , thank you!!!!!! xoxoxoxoxAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-56700514002860062132013-05-24T17:29:00.000-07:002013-05-24T17:29:00.230-07:0019.6 pounds 10 months later and I'm officially down 19.6 pounds. I am really hoping to make it to a 20 pound loss by July 16th. That will be my one year anniversary that I decided enough is enough! Looking back I cant believe I made it this far. Those lifestyle changes, although seeming dramatic at the time, have become my normal now. Change is always difficult but in this case, it was well worth it! It is amazing what a positive mindset, willpower, and a great support system from friends and family changed my life. You have all followed me and encouraged me. I will always be thankful to everyone for helping me get to a healthier and more peaceful place. <br />
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It has been a long cold winter. Even the spring feels like winter. Its much harder for me to exercise when its raining and cold, but I try to do it whenever possible. I've found that any exercise at all makes a huge difference. I haven't been eating as well or planning my food as I did in the beginning, mainly due to my crazy schedule. Working full time, and three boys in baseball keeps me very busy. However, I am more conscious of the choices I make. If I eat fries, I don't immediately talk myself into having a burger and ice cream because I already messed up. I just eat the fries. I still try and pick one day a week to splurge but its not as important to me anymore. I am just happy fitting in my pants that are 4 sizes smaller than last year. That is worth more to me than any cookie!<br />
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I have had fight, after fight with Taylor, an her inconsistent ways. I don't like her! Yes, Taylor is the name on my scale. I believe that she is taunting me. The weight goes up, then down. I don't like Taylor because she makes feel bad about myself , and angry!! I decided I'm going to beat her at this game ,because if you know me, wining is everything. Once I set my mind to beating this, it will have to happen. I have to see that number on the scale that shows me that 20 pounds is gone! Then off to my next level ! Wish me luck xoxo. <br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-19176925026959185042013-04-05T05:45:00.001-07:002013-04-05T05:48:23.641-07:00I had a fight with the scale, im not sure, but I think I won!So I get on the scale this morning because its Friday. I only get on the scale on Fridays, that's what I keep telling myself. Anyway, I get on the scale and I'm 10 pounds lighter. I yell at the scale and tell it to stop playing games with my head. Mind you I'm talking to a scale alone in the bathroom. I may have bigger issues than overeating :-). So I get back on again, and now I'm 7 pounds heavier. At this point I'm calling the scale a liar, and I know I didn't gain 7 pounds. So I get on several more times until I had the same weight three times in a row. Now I was happy, I lost 3.8 pounds and that seemed to be accurate. I cannot believe the head games that this scale plays with me! We have an ongoing love, hate relationship.<br />
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I really worked hard this week with my nutrition. I cut out all sugar and flour, and ate 6 small meals. I cant lie , I was really hungry at night and wanted cake. Several people offered me very enticing food, and I turned it down, and they looked and me and are still amazed that I wouldn't take it. If you catch me on a bad day, I might take it, and yours, so watch out! I resisted and honestly feel better for it. The biggest problem is maintaining my food lifestyle. Being prepared is surely the number one key for me, and motivation to exercise. Exercising has again become obsolete this week. There really isn't enough time in my day. Honestly if there was Id have more to do. With my regular activity daily, I'm only averaging 8,000 or so steps a day. My goal is 10,000 a day. I'm hoping for better weather to get me more motivated, and going for long walks with the pups again. <br />
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Thank you to everyone that relates to my blog and sends me messages and comments. It really does keep me on track !Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-59814876767015992072013-03-29T05:55:00.001-07:002013-03-29T05:55:25.299-07:00Its been a brutal winter!I was fine until the week before Christmas. I lost 18 pounds in total from July and was really pleased with myself. Many people encouraged me to live it up because it was Christmas and I had worked so hard, that I should take a break. I wasn't completely sold on the idea of just letting go because I know my pattern. I then will convince myself its "OKAY" to indulge when its really not. So I ate whatever and drank whatever and gained weight quick. My body is not meant to let go. Christmas came and went and then it was new years, and I was still eating. I tried to get back on track but it was so rainy and cold. I didn't want to exercise and I was slowly slipping into my old ways. I went to party after party and showed some restraint but the pounds kept fluctuating.I would lose a pound then gain 3. In total since before Christmas I have gained 5 pounds. So now I'm only at a 13 pound loss, which is devastating to a short person. 5 pounds is like putting on 30. Strangely enough people come to me for nutrition advice and now I feel like a hippocrate. I really motivated the least likely people and they are wearing pedometers and tracking food, and eating better because of me, and now I cannot stay motivated. If you know me , you know that everything I do is scheduled and organized. If its not I cannot function because I don't have enough time in my day. I work full time, have 3 kids, and 2 dogs. I need to regain the focus. That's not easy when all I do is focus on everything else and not myself. As I'm tying this, I'm being talked to and asked why I'm still on the computer, and when I'm going to be done. If anyone has a motivational speech, I would love it :-) Especially now that Easter is coming, and there will be another food battle to face. <br />
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I took the kids out to lunch yesterday, and I looked around . I would say at least 80% of the people were overweight. One woman asked the waiter to move her because she couldn't fit in the booth. There were these two woman having lunch and the smaller woman finished her food. The overweight woman only ate half and had hers wrapped. I thought to myself , she will eat that in her car on the way home. That's why I have to put myself out there, and not be like that. Yes I am the girl that would eat that in the car because I'm still hungry. When I eat well, no flour, no sugar I feel well. When I eat the "junk" I feel like "junk". I'm hoping to really get started eating well and exercising more again. I want to be a good example of how you can turn things around, even after numerous failures. I do appreciate everyones help. It is encouraging to know that others go through the same fight I do. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-54863547746886920402013-01-19T06:46:00.001-08:002013-01-19T06:46:56.469-08:00Im going down!I'm back to obsessing over the scale. The other night the entire bathroom was flooded. Without a concern for anything else, I saved the scale first. I was so worried that it wouldn't work , I grabbed it and wrapped it in a towel. Thankfully the scale was left unharmed!<br />
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The holidays sure did throw me off. I put on a total of 5 pounds in a few weeks time frame, and its been almost a month and I'm having a hard time taking this weight back off. Ive only lost 1.9 pounds of it, and my clothes are feeling tighter. I invested in a great pedometer and it works well. However, I am only on average at 6,000 steps per day.I want to reach 10,000 steps per day. I really thought with my everyday movement, without structured exercise, it would be more. For me the key is exercise along with eating well. Its been really hard to get moving. My foot is hurting from the bad weather and its just so dark and cold out there. I am always so busy throughout the nights and weekends filled with out of the house activities, its really hard to find the time to do exercise in the house. I was trying to gt up at 4:30am to start my day instead of 5:30am but that just made me more tired and irritable. I am trying to focus on the upcoming spring weather. I started today taking saffron elite, and I'm hoping that it helps bring me down off of this carbohydrate and sugar high. Any feedback about health in general , especially your thoughts about saffron would be helpful?Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-15314303023441907652012-12-28T05:43:00.001-08:002012-12-28T05:43:24.453-08:00Intoxicated by foodSo I made it through the holiday parties throughout the month of December with grace. Then one foggy night (12/20 Thurs)waiting in traffic for 2 hours, it all fell apart. The beautiful tray of cookies that a co worker made me where in the passenger seat. I am not a patient person especially when the day care closes at 6pm and I have to get home and make dinner, and walk the dogs, housework, and still do more Christmas present shopping. So I looked over at the well wrapped cookie tray with its snug red velvet bow, and I began to tug at it. I said to myself, its stuck that means you shouldn't eat it. So I looked away and looked up. The traffic was at a stand still and it was 5:45pm. I tried again to open it without luck. I took a breath and then ripped it open with my teeth. I was so stressed and with no hope of healthy food in site I ate many cookies, and the delicious lindt chocolates that she perfectly placed on the tray. I felt a horrible guilt, and I felt horribly sick. When I finally got home with my tray , the kids wanted to know who made me such an ugly tray of cookies. This was only the beginning to a 5 day food fest. I normally skip pizza Friday, but not this week. The weekend was filled with parties, and I was really trying to make the most of it. However, my body was not excepting this now foreign food regimen. Christmas Eve and Christmas Day were the biggest food events yet this year. On both days I went to 2 parties each. both places had endless food and desserts.I tried to stay away from the carbohydrates but my dad especially brought me raviolis from Matteo's, so I had to eat them. By the middle of Christmas day I was hunched over in pain. Everyone clearly noticing my discomfort. I tried to get back on track and did okay on Wed and Thursday of this week, but I am starving. Eating that way has brought my cravings back at full force. I got on the scale this morning and gained 2 pounds from last week. The overeating and lack of exercise surprised me that I didn't gain more. I'm going to try and make some better choices until New Years eve and day. Then Jan 2nd I have to get motivated and stay on track again. Wish me luck I'm gonna need it after this junk food high! :-PAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-35608795775999904382012-12-13T11:07:00.001-08:002012-12-13T11:07:33.606-08:00Im at a stand still<div><p>I havent lost any weight in over a month. Good thing is I havent gained any. Walking far in the dark has not been apealing to me. That means lack of exercise for me and the pups. Ive been doing 2 mile walks on demand and playing xbox biggest loser. I havent touched diet soda since July and I generally only cheat one day a week.There were so many parties the last few weeks and I didnt touch a thing that was bad, unless it was my cheat day. Does anyone have any suggestions at all to get this weight loss going again? Im at a stand still and its frustrating!</p>
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Last night I was really hungry and I made the kids mac and cheese bites. They smelled so good I wanted to put all of them in my mouth, so I did. Well not all, I put two in my mouth chewed them, and spit them out. It wasn't the same as swallowing them but at least I got the taste, and I really have gained willpower during these last few months, and didn't attempt to actually eat them. In place of my carb craving, I sliced up potatoes into chips and baked them in the oven. All was good in my world in that moment. Everyday is a challenge, so wish me luck going into the food zone this month. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-34175593123900995642012-11-02T18:40:00.002-07:002012-11-02T18:40:59.589-07:00Major Set Back!It was a bad week. I didnt have my cheat day on Saturday because my husband said that he was making me a surprise halloween dinner. That through me off because Saturday food is all the leftovers from the week, and that is just boring. I started to think about straying then I decided that only one day to cheat was allowed, and it had to be Wednesday. Especially because I haven't been walking much, and not much other exercise either. Then Monday night the hurricane hits, and its a food party at my house. I tried my best not to eat the chicken cutlet and mashed potatoes, but I couldn't resist. I had my husband bake the chicken instead of frying it, but there was still breadcrumbs. so I ate way more than my portion size. I didn't stop there because you know a bad meal isn't complete without dessert. I had chocolate covered Carmel popcorn .I ate more than half the bag, and then decided I was feeling sick. I didn't stop there, later on in the night I ate the rest of the bag. Tuesday I get back on track, and didn't touch any of the brownies that I made for the kids and their friends. Good thing those kids eat fast, and they didn't leave a drop. At that point I was really hungry. I overdosed on bad food and was craving more. I felt so hungry, and nothing was helping. I made it through the night without totally loosing it. Wednesday was Halloween. Of course we had many goodies at work but I just ate my healthy food and was feeling pretty good until I got home. There was homemade mac and cheese, really crispy, and spider bread. The rat meatloaf was cheese stuffed and tasted awesome , yes I ate it, and plenty of it. Then for dessert pumpkins with butter, sugar and Cinnamon. It was beyond delicious. I didn't stop there because it was Halloween I had to have some candy too. The next day I felt awful, and new that my Friday weigh in wouldn't be good news. At that point I started thinking well you were close to a 20 pound lose, 2 pounds isn't bad, but then I thought yes it is. That is the same rationalization that always gets me into trouble. I ate bad for 2 days and haven't steadily exercised, and that's why I gained two pounds. Normally I would be angry and say I only ate bad for two days, why me, but honestly I know the answer. <br />
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I go into wawa this morning , yes because I live there, and this friendly woman was offering me a free sample. She sang a very nice song about me drinking the carmel salted latte. It was really strange, and I refused. She said but you will really like It. I said yes lady I know I will like it, I will probably LOVE it, so stop taunting me! She smiled at me like, whatever crazy lady, and I happily walked out with my black pumpkin spice coffee.Now to get back on track! Please no one offer me free unhealthy drinks or food, and I should be okay, I think?Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-50981272758800712952012-10-12T18:45:00.002-07:002012-10-12T18:45:39.018-07:00I got weighedOn Saturday I went to my aunt Theresa's for her birthday, and there was lots of food, and I ate most of it. It was my "cheat day". Funny thing is I got full much faster than usual and I actually felt sleepy. I asked my sister and brother in law to go for a 2 mile walk with me and they did without hesitation. I asked the rest of the family and they all laughed out loud and continued to eat the homemade butter finger that I made for them. <br />
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As always I had a busy week filled with soccer , baseball, and lessons for the kids as well as work, and everyday life. I felt overwhelmed and exhausted, and just wanted to eat. I was fighting the hunger all week, and its a feeling that I haven't had in awhile, and I felt weak. I was questioning my lifestyle change, and really wanted to give up, so I resorted to obsessing over the scale.<br />
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I got weighed Monday, and I lost .8 ounces, then Tuesday I was a 1pound heavier. Then Wednesday I was .2 ounces lighter, then Thursday I was 1.5 pounds heavier then last Friday. Seriously I almost gave up, but I gave myself one more day, the official weigh in day of Friday. I got on the scale and lost .6 ounces. It sure was better than being heavier than last week. Note to self: stay off the scale! its discouraging!<br />
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I am now at 16.8 pounds total loss. I tried on gap jeans that I haven't worn since 2004, and they fit.I always refused to give them away, and now I'm glad I didn't. Those jeans fitting me outweighed the devastation of my traumatic week with the scale.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-36522252431482622692012-10-05T20:02:00.001-07:002012-10-05T20:02:18.907-07:0016.2 pds gone and Im back!I got weighed today and only lost 4oz this week. Normally I would be annoyed but I was happy! I'm glad that I'm still losing something. I dropped down 2 sizes, and people are actually noticing the weight loss.In total from July 16th I have lost 16.2 pounds. Its like the size of a 6 month old baby. When I think of the comparison it makes me realize how much is really gone. A close friend is also losing weight, and a few weeks ago she had lost a total of 25pds. I told her it was like losing the size of a small toddler off her body, its nuts when you think of it like that.<br />
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I haven't kept up with my blog, and I was pleasantly surprised that people missed it. Thanks for caring, it really motivates me to keep going with this. Its been about a month since I wrote because my life is so insanely busy. A typical weekday for me is getting up at 5:30am taking care of the dogs, getting ready for work, getting the kids ready for school, getting them breakfast, getting me breakfast, then getting them to the bus by 7:15am. Then I go to work, leave work around 4:45pm get the kids, go to soccer Monday and Wednesday nights, get home from soccer by 7;15pm, make dinner, do homework with the boys, shower the boys, get everyone ready for bed. My job is still going because I have to do laundry, clean up, make lunches for the kids, and pack my food, sharpen pencils etc... the list goes on and on. Tues &Thurs are about the same but that's when I prepare my food. The weekends are always booked, Soccer all morning on Saturdays, and Fall ball on Sundays. There's always a bunch of other craziness like food shopping,parties and so much more to do. All this insanity always made me want to eat before, and now when I'm stressed I just want to exercise. It really makes me feel better. However, the challenge has been fitting exercise in my everyday life. By the end of the night, honestly all I want to do is sleep lol`<br />
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Some people are still saying I'm "dieting" but I'm not. This is not dieting it has been an enormous lifestyle change. I love to eat this way, and I treat myself once a week to whatever I want to eat. Its not even because I have to have it, its a break from planning like I do the other 6 days a week. I have sat through dinners, and parties touching french fries, and pizza, and cutting cake, and I wont eat it. People look at me like I have three heads, I might, but I can fit into a smaller size pants, so who cares. I have had alot of people ask me to tell them what I'm doing because they want to do it. I tell them and they say they cant. One thing I have learned is if you say you cant, you wont!!! Its up to you to do this for yourself. Its all about mindset, and no one else can make you do this but yourself! Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-15179881501256076702012-09-14T19:39:00.002-07:002012-09-14T19:39:26.633-07:00Im Still Losing !!!This has been such a rough week. Saturday was my uncle Pete's funeral, very sad :-( I decided that was my day that I would eat whatever I wanted to. I was really upset and needed to just indulge. I had over 2000 calories that day.I logged every single thing I ate onto myfitnesspal. I ate meatballs, cookies and cream ice cream,wine, beer, fresh cream donuts, and much more. On Sunday I walked almost 3 miles, and got right back on track. I stuck to my food plan everyday. However, exercising became a challenge. I ran out of time every night, It was so frustrating. Tuesday we had a big birthday party for a few people at work, and there was tons of fantastic food. I still enjoyed the party but ate my own food. I did add some delicious hummus to my salad, but other than that I didn't eat a thing. I got weighed on Thursday this week because I'm impatient, and discovered I lost 2.8 pounds this week. I was so excited!! I have lost a total of 14.8 pounds all together. This is such a huge accomplishment for me. I usually give up by now. I'm so glad I didn't. I have so many people helping me stay motivated , I refuse to give up this time.<br />
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A very sweet person that I know is very heavy. She is such a nice person and she has small children. I asked her where she has been because I haven't heard from her, and she said she was in the hospital, due to her being extremely over weight. She took a look at me and complimented me on my weight loss. She said to me that it was inspiring to her, and not much works for her, and shes glad I found something that worked for me. I gave her all the information about what worked for me, and shes going to give it a try. I told her I was still on a mission to lose more weight, and I would help her in any way I can. everyone has to find out which lifestyle works best for them. <br />
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I'm hoping to have a less stressful week, and exercise more. Wish me luck :-)Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-24273350994055632892012-09-08T02:57:00.000-07:002012-09-08T02:57:26.228-07:00I lost 2oz srsly!I should be thankful that I lost 12 pounds altogether but really who loses only 2oz for the week??? I guess I should be happy that I lost at least something. I didn't get to exercise much this week, I have been extremely busy, and there has been massive amounts of food around me. My uncle passed away last week, and what my family always does best is eat . On Sunday I drank beer, wine, and ate brownies, homemade spaghetti, meatballs, and so much more. I actually logged all of my "bad" food into mytfitnesspal. It helped me stay focused. I got right back on track the next day. Exercise is the key for me but I don't always have the time to do it. Walking , playing tennis, and now I'm getting into the soccer season with the boys. I think these exercises will help me reach my goal.They will also alleviate some high stress levels in dealing with stupid people! Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-81728844128759269752012-08-31T05:16:00.002-07:002012-08-31T05:16:35.401-07:00Vaction Week!I was really frightened at first about vacation. Who fears being off because of food, I guess I'm the only one. I made a lot of really great choices while I was busy with the boys, and it wasn't as bad as it could have been. I packed my food in a cooler and took it with me everyday, and when I did go out to eat I just stuck withlean protein , potato or rice, and lots of vegetables. I did have a small cheat fest on Saturday night with some very delicious chocolate chip cookies. I got right on track the next day. While on vacation I walked a lot on the beach, boardwalk , amusement parks,the zoo, museum's, golf, tennis, and burned a lot of calories. I lost 1.8 pounds this week, and I'm at a total of a 12 pound loss. As some wise people have pointed out to me that the number on the scale is not as important, and they are right. I feel great, and was able to build sand castles with my kids, and jump and run into the ocean with them, and not feel exhausted. I'm the kinda mom that I want to be. As I was jumping waves with my boys I heard a mom saying to her kids that she just couldn't do what I'm doing with her kids because she didn't have the energy. I turned around and smiled at her and said neither did I a few months ago. We started talking, and she was only 32 years old. She had 2 boys 5 and 8, and she was sad that her life came to this point. We had a really great conversation and she seemed motivated to make a change so she could just simply play with her kids. I really have learned we are what we eat. If you put sugar in your car gas tank, your car wont run, same goes with your body. I have always taught my kids to eat well, and they have always made better choices than I have. I really was a hypocrite. Knowing that's not good for you and not giving it to your children, but eating it yourself is not the right way to live. One night when me and the boys went out to dinner I asked them what did they want to drink? They all chose water with their dinner, and said they want to be healthy like me. I'm not saying all other drinks are bad for you, but I only have drank water, and tea since July 15th, and they noticed that. The positives of eating well and exercising have surpassed the "bad" food enticement, at least for this week, that is :-)Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-62553788463650140522012-08-24T04:34:00.000-07:002012-08-24T04:34:06.476-07:00I guess I cant!I gained .8 pounds this week. It really upsets me because I have been exercising and eating right for over a month now. I'm hoping its just muscle weight but I have to say its very discouraging. It has been an extremely stressful and busy week, and some research says that weight gain is associated with stress. If its not those answers, its that my body hates me and doesn't want to help. Not logical but maybe true.<br />
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Many people say that you need a "cheat" day so I did that Sat night. This was the first time that I had really let myself go, and it wasn't pretty. Grazing is not good for me. Its best when I know exactly what I'm going to eat. Saturday night was a pot luck Mexican night at my brother in laws house. Mexican food is one of my favorites, and my brother in law makes the best flauntas. Normally he bakes them, but he deep fat fried them. Of course I still ate it, and it was so good. There were at least 15 different entries, desserts , and appetizers. Everything was so good, so I wanted to try whatever I could. I took a little of this and that, and then I lost count. That's never a good thing for me. Once I lose count, I don't count. I had the best homeade chocolate chili ice cream on a deep fat fried cinnamon tortilla chip. I didn't stop there, when I got home I had a sundae.I was back in the mentality , better make it worth it mode. I put crushed pretzels, oreos, chocolate syrup, and whip cream on it. It was delicious. I got back on track the very next day, but I really think I'm paying for it with this .8 pounds.Mind you that I have not had ANY alchoholic beverage "cheat" at all. I cant eat like regular people. Every ounce accumulates with even one night of "bad" eating. Now I'm on vacation and I will not have a regular eating schedule. Should be an interesting week, stay tuned!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-60629105015056131682012-08-17T13:33:00.002-07:002012-08-17T13:33:43.374-07:00YES I CAN I lost 1.8 pounds with my weigh in this morning. I have had the worst week, and didn't think id make it through without cookies, cake, and fries. Its to painful to explain in detail all of the things that happened to me , but it didn't drive me to eat"bad" food. I actually turned to eating healthy and exercising to comfort me, and it didn't pull me further under. I actually felt stronger like I could actually face all of my problems. Usually I get upset and eat to make things better, and then I feel disgusting and fat, and feel worse. Thank you to all of those who keep encouraging me to go on and "just do it". In total for the month I lost 10.8 pounds. Honestly, I haven't seen this weight in a long time. I still have alot to go, but feel like I can do this! <br />
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When I was little I remember watching an after school special, yes I'm old. The girl said NACISEY when she wanted to do something and thought that she couldnt, and it magically worked for her, and she could do it. Some people have probably heard me talking to myself and said NACISEY, but I never mention what it means. It means YESICAN!!!!! There's no magic here, but there is hard work, and motivation <3 I hope I can keep this momentum going!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-52332162376538127452012-08-14T18:00:00.001-07:002012-08-14T18:00:01.571-07:00All around bad dayI stayed on my food plan but was just having a bad day. Honestly, I feel like just giving up. I didnt get to walk and all I want to do is eat the cinamon pecan swirls that are sitting in front of me. Im actually to tired to eat so I wont give up tonight. Its been a long emotional draining week and its only tuesday. Im hoping tomorrow is a better day :-(Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6076379635991266441.post-75969541545861033592012-08-13T18:59:00.001-07:002012-08-13T18:59:06.178-07:00BusyI was busy all day until now. Even when I don't have time , I still want to eat junk food. Thankfully I had my food all ready for me or I surely would have eaten something unhealthy. This happens to me sometimes when I finally settle down from an insane day. Its close to a month that I am eating healthier. I cant believe that I'm keeping this up. I'm frightened when the day comes that I give up. I hope it doesn't happen. Each day is a new one!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06769626718450421510noreply@blogger.com0